The people who help Cancer patients/Survivors, I say survivors because we still need help sometimes, "Chemo-Brain" and anxiety smh. The feelings we have of what's next, where do we go from here, how do we start life over again, fear of remission not lasting we are human with these feelings but we now live each day to the fullest.
I can tell you that caregivers are some of the finest people I have ...ever met, and the bond between a caregiver and a patient is forever. You’ll cry together; you’ll cry separately. You’ll celebrate every victory and suffer every defeat. There will be many long, exhausting days. Some will be unpleasant; others will be impossible. But at the end of every day, it is a good day when you make it through as one spirit united in a single purpose.

My caregiver happens to be my Ace, My Rock, he's that to a lot of people (ROCK) because of his warm spirit, unselfish, genuine heart and his willingness to help others. (He gets it from his mother :-) ) Even with dealing with his own personal life of adversity, He was still there for me and vise versa and if I had to do it again, he's assured me that he would be there again. PLEASE REMEMBER CAREGIVERS NEED SUPPORT AND RECOGNITION TOO!! They are a major part of our recovery. I Love you Jamarll and All the Caregivers in the World

Here I am up at 3 am with tears in my eyes, I just had a long conversation with an associate about why she never called me to say anything to me during my process of battle. Her words were, YOU DID NOT LOOK LIKE YOU HAD CANCER!!! This is not the first time I'm hearing this, the first time was suppose to be behind my back so I never said anything now to hear it for the first time was like a knife t...o the heart. What am I suppose to look like??!! On my bad days I didn't leave the house, my bed, I didn't shower cause I was too weak to stand alone I was to weak to even walk! I lost a total of 25 pounds and I didn't go anywhere but to work and home and barely did that! Thank God for FMLA and disability!!! My hair fell out, had no desire to eat, didn't want company cause I was concerned that people would ask too many questions I wasn't ready to answer! My point for this post is to say this, please please please do not say oh cancer is not that serious, you don't look like you have it cause when I see people in tv they look different! We all handle it in different ways. I'm really upset about how people perceive us. Cancer patients and survivors are human just like everyone else we have feelings. I may be a Survivor but I do have a 62%chance of recurrence that's more than half! But, I believe God Not to go back there. I won't stop speaking on this until there is a cure! You never know, the person next to you may be fighting for their life just as I was and still am. Don't be cruel to each other. I thank God for revealing the snakes!! He's awesome just like that!!!!

In Memory Of KIZZY.......On April 23, 2012 I lost a very Dear friend to Ovarian Cancer Stage 4... She fought for 8 Long months but was called home.. I was VERY angry by this because here I am in remission (praying it stays that way ) and my friend is gone. We were supposed to make it together. The feeling of Guilt came along because I’m here and she isn’t The last time I saw her was in a hospices... in February she was smiling, saying she was ok but I knew the look on her face and knew she was in a lot of pain. To this day she didn’t know I had made it into the phase I am in now because she was doing so bad that I didn’t want her to think we still weren’t fighting together. When I look back on it now and after speaking to her Parents I think that was the worst Mistake I ever made in my LIFE!! Why not encourage her to see I am a living testimony of what she is going though. Even though my stage was not as far along as she was. I really regret that. Her Dad kept asking me to not have the guilty feeling and to just do all I can to raise awareness. I did attend the Home going services and It was a sad one but at the end, Her Dad Mr. Kent got up and said "Stop crying, rejoice, Kizzy is no longer in pain, if you want to do something Speak out, pray, live life"... a lot of people didn’t understand what he was saying but, I did. It’s all Clear... Sometimes we try to live life for our Family and friends and when we mess up we are look at as the Bad person because of the high expectations we put on people. We are the only ones that hurt not the others. Kizzy lived her life for her family always and being that she did she would hide what was truly going on with her. This is kind of why I decided to speak out about myself. I knew my family (friends) was hurting because of what I was going though and some were even mad because I took so long to speak up. Cancer is no joke. I'm going though another phase right now in this battle and All I want to do is Raise awareness for myself and for Kizzy , also for the Woman that are afraid to speak out! I No longer as of this moment I feel Guilty because I know I'm making a difference. Here I was a few weeks ago mad at people for speaking negative and trying to do and say what they thought was best for me, talking negative about my personal situations. We all need to look at our own selves before speaking on others. You never know why a person chooses to do what they do. AWARNESS IS MY LIFE. When Kizzy passed, more things became clear to me. LIFE IS VERY SHORT I will not let anyone say or do anything that hinders me from reaching the world. Be positive in your Life, your family life and friends. Whatever you may be going though, Remember GOD is in Control... I love My Family (friends I consider family) and All My CANCER Friends We all Rock and We BATTLE NEVER GIVE UP YOUR FIGHT. Also, Thanks for never giving up on me! PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL. RIP KIZZY L KENT. 8/2/1978-4/23/2012. I LOVE YOU and thank you for being another ANGEL watching over me.